I hate to say this but people can be bought. And the sad thing is that it only happens if you'd let it. I happen to grew up in a house where there were too many aunts & uncles around. I am not even sure how that happened. Now I can't be sure if it's a blessing or if it is a curse. I grew up nervous all the time. The only thing that bothers me more is when they leave and come back. Like nothing ever happened. Most of them left of course. In time they realized that they need to have their own homes and raise a family of their own. And so I used to have more cousins around than I needed to. Most of them has made me how I am today. And because my father was well off back then, we were blessed to go study to a private school, Something that I always tried and try to make parents and peers proud of. But the truth was that it was quite stressful, needless to say though that we always have help around. Something that I felt not really that necessary.
As time went by, that understanding that it can't be the way it was. The unconscious search for that feeling once again does come from time to time, That unconscious yearn for that old feeling sometimes do come back much to my dismay. There were times that you wish it does not happen again and although the thought to escape can not be suppressed because the pull was so strong.
No comments:
Post a Comment