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Thursday, December 19, 2019

EARTHQUAKES, TREMORS, SHIFTING TURNING, SPINNING MOVEMENTS

It has been months since, now I write again.  I have been trying to look, watch, read and listen some more.  Or just trying to hear, see, unhear and unsee if possible.  The things that happens, occurs, happened and occurred.  I have been trying to analyze, understand, investigate, explore, and discover.  I have been trying to crack my own codes..  I am trying to find meaning through it all.  I am trying to shield and attack if need be.  The things that bother me, the things that could hurt or mess or fuck up this life in and around everywhere.  Environmentally, physically, emotionally, metaphorically, mentally, spiritually and digitally.

I'm trying to hold on architecturally as well.  Internet-actively taking my mind to places where it wants to get lost to and find myself back home again.  I sometimes find myself sleep too late or wake up too early that I find myself stare into space longer than usual.  Time sometimes goes too slow and sometimes it flies so very fast.  I also find myself consuming too much thinking that I have drained too much energy.  And I get tired easily than ever before, catching up from too much waking hours, I find myself sleeping more than usual.  I get to drink more water than ever before considering my immobility. 

And it seems it's been that way to a lot of people around me as well.

Earthquakes happen more than usual just as the leaders were trying to build more.  Just the other day, it reached to a magnitude scale of 6.9.  Aftershocks happen afterwards.  Tremors.  It almost happens once every week or every other week.  I'm starting to believe that it wasn't just any ordinary seismic activity.  I started to imagine gigantic creatures, maybe a dragon or a snake, slithering underground from the depths of whatever hell they're trudging about.  Shifting from one place to another.  I'm trying to look for cracks in the walls, finding none made it feel safer.     

Are we OK?

Thursday, September 12, 2019

FREE KITTENS

The ceiling.  There's a part , a corner of the kitchen ceiling that we needed to saw off.  A dead cat was up there months ago.  It really smelled bad.  Yes, a dead cat, its remains off to the garbage.  Days ago, just a day before yesterday, kittens were up that hole that part we sawed off, an opening like a cave.  Newborn kittens.  Baby cats, felines, kittens.  Two fell off the day before yesterday.  And three plopped to the floor yesterday. 

Hey, why are cats falling from the ceiling one by one?  I put the three kittens inside a box.  I  started to name them wondering when and until the mother cat arrives to fetch them  I started to name the three, Nine, Eleven and Nineteen.  But just this morning just as my brother told me to leave them outside, they're all gone and fetched away to my amusement.

Saturday, July 6, 2019

JULY 6TH,

It's the sixth of July.  If you write the date in numbers, it would be seven six two zero one nine or 7 6 2 0 1 9. And if you prefer to put the day first before the month, then it would be 6 7 2 0 1 9, whichever you prefer.  I know I'd get what you mean right away since I live on the same day as it is today, which happens to be the present or the now. 

The only take away is, is that somehow when it is daytime down here, somewhere else it would be night time. And it is but easy to recognize and emphasize that it just means that we do not live on the same time and date in other parts of the globe.  

And because it happens to be this way, then we could safely say that numbers do not really matter anymore, yeah at some point, if you insist.  But that's how we can safely say that it is all mixed up everywhere anyway so why keep bothering ourselves with numbers?  It's just a number, it numbs out every part of us, so what, right?

Thursday, July 4, 2019

DIZZY SPELLS, FACEBOOK JAILBIRDS, TATTOOED FIENDS, THE PRESENCE OF GOD, THE THEORIES OF THE NUMBER OF CHILDREN IN THE HOUSEHOLD AND UNDERSTANDING BIRTH SEQUENCES PERSONALITIES

We have always thought that we were doing it well.  Teachers, like out of the box parents, made us do so.  They are like obscure aunts and uncles that had to live somewhere outside our premises. But the trouble is, there had to be two sides of it. Our father's side and our mother's side. Our grandmothers and your grandfathers sure could make the whole thing feel grand.  And our cousins could go unnecessarily close. 

But it wasn't done out of envy.  No, not from vengeful jealousy.  It wasn't about the left and the right wing. It was just and is so.  Like doing the right thing instead of the other way around.  Schools and churches of  goodwill has made it easy and possible.  It just so happens that we were in a way, good or better in doing it well.  And comes the reactions and overreactions of the people around us.  We won't know however anymore if we were bothered when we were honored.  Were we honored to be retarded?  Our growth distracted. To keep us calmer, we had to be distinguished.  Our progress being analyzed and kind of investigated, traced, followed, put into crosshairs, magnified, or even microscoped.  Like they're not being  put into the picture themselves.  And we would be considered freaks, creeps, or maybe just plainly brighter than any other age group.  Most of us excelled and some of those  who knew better stayed put.  And were we still doing the right thing anyway however, whenever as long as we are home?  We better be home than anywhere else if you need to think straight, and get dizzy after a while, and onwards to rest our heads back home again.  Your ideas and concepts of home. They would differ, probably will and your televisions or television networks might just set the trend on how you have to live your lives.  And cool kids we might be, never had the time anymore indeed.

Sunday, June 23, 2019

PARASITES, BANDITS, IDIOTS, SHOWOFFS, RISKTAKERS, INFLUENCERS & CELEBRITIES

Call it the Power of Negative Thinking or whatever.  But I'd say that it'll protect you from useless events, occurrences.  If you are that inept and observant, you'd spot them right away, even for meters away.  But of course if you've been trained and taught well enough, you wouldn't really care or get confused.  You'd immediately know how and when to say Yes or when to say No and I don't know.  With due respect, even for the most disrespectful ones, you'd need to know how.  Or you'd get to be abused and used.  You should learn to know when to refuse or when to be tolerable and when to stop.

Like a test for a structure, for a vehicle, for a domicile.  Before any kind of use.  Like befriending a machine before making it your constant companion.  To test it's integrity, durability, efficiency. A sort of by pass.  Right, a test.

Friday, February 1, 2019

WATCH OUT

Watch out.  They might creep in without you even noticing a thing.  They can steal your roles, your character, your demeanor.  Your identities resolved taken and assumed. Just like people on TV.  The schizophrenic actors and actresses portraying roles to the extreme.  Your noontime shows, your soap operas, Netflix, Cable TV, telenobelas, satellite TV, the radio and the internet superhighway. The networks and their engineers, lawyers, the media, the politicians. 

It's business as usual so they say.  Apparently if you got the problem, they got the solution.  You have no problem, they'd give you some. If you were ill, they'd cure you.  If you were healthy, they'd make you sick.  That's how it is.  Apparently, if you feel sad, they'd make you happy.  If you are happy, they'd make you sad.  They always find ways against every little move.  And sometimes they would lock you up, or set you free before you find yourself lost again somehow in your own maze. 

They can, am telling you they can.  They even take shifts.  The dayshift and the nightshift, and the inbetweens.  Now you can decide to play along. Learn the latest app, the latest software, and be the most avid user, player.  An admirable, money-eating venture.  Give in to the latest hardware upgrade.  Join in friends and folks. They got everything you wanted to play the game. Pick a side, make up your mind.  Make a choice. You are under their commands, their program, their control. They'd find every little thing they can to find fault in you.  They would ask too many questions, investigate, pry, stalk, prey, creep, tempt and keep you asking for more.

Eventually, they would slowly start confessing to you their sins. God, you'd feel betrayed.  And you ask them, "How rude of you, how sick of you to do so? What ever happened to you for you to do this to me?" The men and women you most admired now becomes the people you most despised.  You lost respect over them, in turn you find yourself lost along the way.  What the hell!    

You will have to keep fighting my friend.  This is unacceptable. This is not who we are.  This is not what and how it should be.   Things are getting messy.  Is it the economy?  But you find yourself driving yourself amazed at your own wit. Down and up with the troubling, shifting skies, messy clouds ahead.

And they will have to remind you  "Don't forget to feed yourself, don't forget to sleep, catch your breath and smell the flowers, breathe in, breathe out.  Damn it! We're still alive"

Friday, January 4, 2019

NAMES >> OWNERSHIP CLAIMS

What happens if at some point in your life you decided to recall and review everything that happened in your life after several decades?  Say, forty years?  And so like me, as I have reached this number, I could then somehow begin to reassess the present, and recall the past as well for the purpose of needing to alter a future that may crumble, or should I say breakdown.  What do you think should be done?  Hahaha  You worry too much.