It has been months since, now I write again. I have been trying to look, watch, read and listen some more. Or just trying to hear, see, unhear and unsee if possible. The things that happens, occurs, happened and occurred. I have been trying to analyze, understand, investigate, explore, and discover. I have been trying to crack my own codes.. I am trying to find meaning through it all. I am trying to shield and attack if need be. The things that bother me, the things that could hurt or mess or fuck up this life in and around everywhere. Environmentally, physically, emotionally, metaphorically, mentally, spiritually and digitally.
I'm trying to hold on architecturally as well. Internet-actively taking my mind to places where it wants to get lost to and find myself back home again. I sometimes find myself sleep too late or wake up too early that I find myself stare into space longer than usual. Time sometimes goes too slow and sometimes it flies so very fast. I also find myself consuming too much thinking that I have drained too much energy. And I get tired easily than ever before, catching up from too much waking hours, I find myself sleeping more than usual. I get to drink more water than ever before considering my immobility.
And it seems it's been that way to a lot of people around me as well.
Earthquakes happen more than usual just as the leaders were trying to build more. Just the other day, it reached to a magnitude scale of 6.9. Aftershocks happen afterwards. Tremors. It almost happens once every week or every other week. I'm starting to believe that it wasn't just any ordinary seismic activity. I started to imagine gigantic creatures, maybe a dragon or a snake, slithering underground from the depths of whatever hell they're trudging about. Shifting from one place to another. I'm trying to look for cracks in the walls, finding none made it feel safer.
Are we OK?
