NOTHING

This is about nothing.  Yeah, nothing.  I'm thinking about something nothing like there's nothing new.  It's all about nothing at all.  Yeah, hehe.  Nothing's really going on.  It was really nothing.  Yeah, nothing lasts forever.  Nothing else matters, much ado about nothing.  Absolutely nothing.  You should think more about nothing. 

It's the science of emptiness.  Impossible is nothing.  You can do it because nothing is impossible.  Let's join the Do Nothing club.  You got nothing to lose anyway, right? 

Yeah, relax!  Nothing is under control.  Do nothing if there's nothing to do.  Just do nothing. Put it on one of your to do list.  Check the box that says Do Nothing.  Don't worry, it's nothing.  Nothing is permanent in this world - not even our troubles. Move along there's nothing to worry about.  Doing nothing often leads to the very best of something.  And nothing worth having comes easy.

We really have nothing to prove.  We have nothing to hide.   

Thanks for nothing.      

IT''S REVOLTING

I'm in awe.  It's like we're just a bunch of fools making our way into the scene.  A bunch of useless bastards just off to get a case of beer, or a pack of cigarettes.  And them folks lie in waiting for us to make a mistake, impregnating an unsuspecting unknown mantra, a system fuck up. Thus, therefore creates another problem they can use to get back at us generation yet again.

And we wasted our time doing what we do best which won't really matter and we would just end up laughable to them anyway.  But it's how life is lived, right? And we would or just might end up to be one of those who won't get to see his life prosper or lived like every healthy human being.

Life isn't quite the same anymore.  And you have  to choose how your life should turn out. Or you may not even get to choose now how it would turn out anyway while the world is getting weirder and weirder, more confusing than it has to be.

You'd only find yourself alone again caring lesser and lesser about your loved ones and friends. Just trying to get by caring only about yourself and trying to stay put, never having to cause a problem, a fuss, something that'll cause sighs. 

And they'll just end up the same once again.  Never having to care too much about your dreams, your plans since your plans and visions does not matter to them anymore, since it causes a lot of stress and strain.

STARS, RATS & STRALALAS

At rest I should still be.  One of my ears feels clogged with water or maybe puss.  Yuck.  Haha, I know. I didn't go for a swim.  And it's not jetlag. It hurts if I don't take that pill.  

But there it is again.  I see it from this window.  When before I always see the moon in the early morning sky, now it's a star.  It unusally does look brighter now.  It shouldn't shine that bright, does it?  Should it? Wow, that's brilliant.  Brilliant, shiny, sparkle white. Like twinkle, twinkle little star.  Haha

Oh, it's still there.  Haha.  And its background is getting brighter. It's 5:01 AM now.  Anytime now I might stop gazing at it. I really  don't want to.  And now I hear the bell ringing again.  No, it's not just in my head.  It's from the church.  Yeah, the klang of the bells, people from around here knows quite well how that suonds,  For a minute you'd hear it klang. Hmm.  I might have sat up earlier than the bellringer that it was late for a minute.  Because it's around 5:02 when I started to hear it klang. Haha

Hmm.  The sky now is starting to look bluegrayer now. Yeah, a darker tone of bluegray/  Yeah, and the star is still up there.  It's not moving.  It's still there.  "Hey, move away!"

Now, this is the time where you wish you have your own roof decks at the top of your houses that could be reached through a spiral staircase. And look at the sky, making yourself a cup of warm, freshly brewed coffee, a cigarette, and a periscope?  A telescope maybe.  whatever scope, lens...Haha

Oh, I'm back from outside the gate just a minute ago.  Yeah, I went out. Heard the breadpeddler honking his horn.  And seeing this leaflet that offers pest control services.  Just what we needed.  We need to get  that rat.  God knows how many rats comes in and out this house now.

The star is still there I see,  But it's looking like a very small white dot now. A speck of white dot.  The sky is getting brighter that's why.  The background.  Anytime now the sky would dominate the scene making the star invisible.  At the time you see it gone, you'd expect the sun to rise again. Yeah, I know my heavenly bodies too.  Haha. We don't really see them shine together, do we?  You know, at the same time? The star and the sun in the sky.  Doesn't happen, right?  Why is that? I don't know, ask God.

It's 5:30. Haha.  Now I hear the bells klang again.  Haha.  I'm going back to bed.

HOUSE OF CARDS

It seems that there's no end to this.  It seems that the only phrase you will hear from when you start to frustrate yourself however much you seem to work something out, nothing  fruitful really comes.  However much work, however nuch thinking.  The only phrase you will hear from peers are "better go overseas" or "gamble your money away".  Or something like "come on let's play cards and waste our lives away."  "Drink and be merry, Life is a big joke.  Don't take it too seriously."  There'll be no more of that inspiring entity that would somehow keep you on your feet.  There'll only be post apocalyptic stories, post war, the use and abuse of the past.  Teenage wasteland.

The future becomes bland and tasteless.  

Come on.  Take it easy.  And they'll continue to say it's all about making fun about something, about somebody, and money.  Lots and lots of money.  Everyone in traffic.  Uneventful immobile routines and interruptions.  The survival of the fittest.  You see no more mountains to climb, no more spaces to explore, no more roads to take. 

And then we'll all just read.  Inside our own little caves, lairs, dimensions, dungeons and warps.